Filed under: Life
I speak to you in the language of love. My message is compassion. My intentions benevolence. You were the first person, to show me that another person can care for as much as himself or herself, out side of my family. You were so caring and selfless with the people you cared about. I admired and fell in love with that part of you. You made me want to become a better person, for myself and for the people that cared about me. You showed me love like no one has ever shown me before, you love me the way I wanted to be loved. I had a connection with you that I have with non other, and no other would understand. As we grew as a people and together as friends, we slowly saw our differences. Differences that eventually ended our crossroad. What separated us was not our differences, but rather our spiritual immaturity. We saw our differences as a road block, and are unable to see beyond. Beyond our differences is our where we both want to be.
Where did you go and why did you leave me behind? you were not just any friend of mine. You were my special one, one that knew me and loved me more than anyone. I gave you the very best of me, just as you gave me your best. I saw your beauty through all the thorns, accepted you for your good and bad…. for you who you are. All you ever saw in me is a talent….. wasted.
You slowly lost your respect for me, and from that, you lost my respect for you as a person. I still loved you, but do not respect your views. If anything, as I lost my respect for you, I love you more. I felt even more compasionate toward your being. I wanted to share with my gift. I wanted to share with you something that you thought I had wasted by not reaching my potential. I failed miserably. We faild miserably. What hurts me more than losing your friendship is to know that you do not see the beauty that is me. Of anyone, I would think you would be the first person to do so. I woundnt be so hurt if it was anybody, but it is you… My Best Friend, one who i care and love so truely and passionately. And to make even worst, you looked down on me for the way that I am. That is the reason I lost respect for you, you are blind and judge. You are chasing after wind, and eventually you will get tire from your search. One day you will come to see me, but by then it will be too late.
I love you so very much, I have given the best of me for free. I’ve tried when most would not. I dont know what else i couldnt have done.
I know I am losing someone and something so beautiful, but I cannot hold on to you because you do not respect and appreciate me.
I know what i am losing, which is why i am so hurt.
But I also know that I am something beautiful myself and is worth appreciating and repecting. You taught me that, you taught me to love myself and to know my self worth.
You are losing someone beautiful….
I will be content that I have tried and given you my best.
I wish you the best in your life…. you will always be in my heart, for it is an imprint that can never be erased.
I love you not with my heart,
But with my soul.
I will never understand why you chose to go away, and leave me behind.
I am a bird with broken wings, a heart with no beat, a vision with no colors, a person without you.
Filed under: Compassion, Friendship, Life, Philosophy, Spirituality, love
You are my only friend, You are my best friend. Who knows me better than you, Who is always there when I needed a friend, You. You have always been there, to listen, to console, to give advice, to cheer up, to laugh with, to cry with, and ultimately to just be with. Without you, i have no one, no one to listen, no one to talk to, no one to just be with. You are with me every step of the way, never pushy also insightful. You always guided me with your words, but allowed me to be the driver. I love you most but I also take you the granted the most. In times like these, all i have is you. Only you see me with your heart, only you see me for who i am. Only you can see me, because you are the only person I cannot lie to, I cannot hide from. Moments like these, I am grateful i have you in my in my existence. No matter what I feel, right or wrong, without judgement, you sit right there, right next to me….. just being.
You tell me… that I am like a moth getting closer and closer to the light. It worries me deeply, it scares me intensely, i fear what might happen… But something inside, so beautiful, so powerful, so peaceful, so calm, so loving…. something inside tells me I am ok. And no matter what, as long as I have you… the way that you are… No matter what i do, no matter what i go through… you will be next to me… just being… and something about that makes me feel like I am home.
I trip out because you have been with me all along, every step of the way.
I have looked for someone like you all my life. Finding false hope in others, and eventually to be disappointed. I was never aware of your friendship until I started to write this post. You revealed yourself to me in these words in this post. You are the noe writing the word, my only friend, and not I. You and I have always been one and the same.
