Talking2Mirrors

You are my only friend, You are my best friend. Who knows me better than you, Who is always there when I needed a friend, You. You have always been there, to listen, to console, to give advice, to cheer up, to laugh with, to cry with, and ultimately to just be with.  Without you, i have no one, no one to listen, no one to talk to, no one to just be with.  You are with me every step of the way, never pushy also insightful. You always guided me with your words, but allowed me to be the driver.  I love you most but I also take you the granted the most. In times like these, all i have is you. Only you see me with your heart, only you see me for who i am.  Only you can see me, because you are the only person I cannot lie to, I cannot hide from. Moments like these, I am grateful i have you in my in my existence. No matter what I feel, right or wrong, without judgement, you sit right there, right next to me….. just being.

You tell me… that I am like a moth getting closer and closer to the light. It worries me deeply, it scares me intensely, i fear what might happen… But something inside, so beautiful, so powerful, so peaceful, so calm, so loving…. something inside tells me I am ok.  And no matter what, as long as I have you… the way that you are… No matter what i do, no matter what i go through… you will be next to me… just being… and something about that makes me feel like I am home.

I trip out because you have been with me all along, every step of the way.

I have looked for someone like you all my life.  Finding false hope in others, and eventually to be disappointed. I was never aware of your friendship until I started to write this post. You revealed yourself to me in these words  in this post. You are the noe writing the word, my only friend, and not I. You and I have always been one and the same.