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"If I Ever Feel Better"
     By: Phoenix

They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive
It's like a bad day that never ends
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There are things in my life that I can't control

They say love ain't nothing but a sore
I don't even know what love is
Too many tears have had to fall
Don't you know I'm so tired of it all
I have known terror dizzy spells
Finding out the secrets words won't tell
Whatever it is it can't be named
There's a part of my world that' s fading away

You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior
True like ice, true like fire
Now I know that a breeze can blow me away
Now I know there's much more dignity
In defeat than in the brightest victory
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

Hang on to the good days
I can lean on my friends
They help me going through hard times
But I'm feeding the enemy
I'm in league with the foe
Blame me for what's happening
I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...

No one knows the hard times I went through
If happiness came I miss the call
The stormy days ain't over
I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost
Now I've watched all my castles fall
They were made of dust, after all
Someday all this mess will make me laugh
I can't ewait, I can't wait, I can't wait...
 

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

 
It's like somebody took my place
I ain't even playing my own game
The rules have changed well I didn't know
There are things in my life I can't control
I feel the chaos around me
A thing I don't try to deny
I'd better learn to accept that
There's a part of my life that will go away

 
Dark is the night, cold is the ground
In the circular solitude of my heart
As one who strives a hill to climb
I am sure I'll come through I don't know how
They say an end can be a start
Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive

 
I'm losing my balance on the tight rope
Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know

 
If I ever feel better
Remind me to spend some good time with you
You can give me your number
When it's all over I'll let you know.



I Love this Song, the lyrics are dead on and the beats are so alive.

There is a contrast, a contradiction that is subtly brought to life. 

From the melancholy lyrics to the up beat tempo and melody.

I fell in love with this song the first time I heard it, 

I have listen to it over and over a thousand times and the song is still new to me as I first heard it.

I tried to re-write the song to make it fit my life,

As I slowly read the lines to see if it needs to be changed,

I realized I did not want to change any of the lyrics, 

They are perfect as if I was the writter. 

The beauty of Art is that Interpretation is open to those who experience it,

Every line is filled with emotions jampacted into little words,

Every beat and every verse incite an emotion within.

If I had to summarize my life in such little words, this song would be it.

Life is not the characteristics that define who you are,

This song describes my life as what I feel my Life is.

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"They say an end can be a start

Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive

It's like a bad day that never ends

I feel the chaos around me

A thing I don't try to deny

I'd better learn to accept that

There are things in my life that I can't control" 

 

It right away start off with an Irony, how Ironic is Duality.

Aimlessly wondering through Life, Yet at any moment can be a new start.

Fighting a battle you cant seem to win.

The Kaos, the distractions, and the dillusions are all around,

This is the reality of life, and everyone has to play the game.


They say love ain't nothing but a sore

I don't even know what love is

Too many tears have had to fall

Don't you know I'm so tired of it all

I have known terror dizzy spells

Finding out the secrets words won't tell

Whatever it is it can't be named

There's a part of my world that' s fading away



What is Love when it was true and pure, 

What is Love when it turns into pain, tears of sadness.

Done playing those games, I've seen the terror Love can bring.

There is no easy shortcut in Love and in Life.

What we are looking for has no name, it cannot be communicated.

You know I don't want to be clever
To be brilliant or superior

True like ice, true like fire

Now I know that a breeze can blow me away

Now I know there's much more dignity

In defeat than in the brightest victory

I'm losing my balance on the tight rope

Tell me please, tell me please, tell me please...


My mind have lost "I", rid of the ego,

Nothing left to hold on, superior to no one.

True to oneself, as True like fire, like Ice.

I am not perfect, even the smallest pebble can cause a ripple across the water,

There is no dignity in victory if one cannot face oneself in the mirror.

True to self, in the absent of self, there are no victors and no one is defeated. 

Win, Lose, or Draw  be true to oneself. 

Finding equal balance in life is like walking  on a tight rope.


Hang on to the good days

I can lean on my friends

They help me going through hard times

But I'm feeding the enemy

I'm in league with the foe

Blame me for what's happening

I can't try, I can't try, I can't try...


Don't forget the beauty of life,

Friends are there to help you up when you fall.

I am my own worst enemy, and I know it,

I am in a fight with myself,

I am the cause of what is happening. 


No one knows the hard times I went through

If happiness came I miss the call

The stormy days ain't over

I've tried and lost know I think that I pay the cost

Now I've watched all my castles fall

They were made of dust, after all

Someday all this mess will make me laugh

I can't ewait, I can't wait, I can't wait...



Only you know the hard time YOU went though

Happiness is like tropical rain, it comes and goes.

The war is not over yet, there are battles yet to come.

I now have to pay the price for being true to oneself.

Shartered Dreams and Unrealized potential,

One day Ill look back and smile,

I realized that those are not my dreams.

I can't wait till that day

It's like somebody took my place

I ain't even playing my own game

The rules have changed well I didn't know

There are things in my life I can't control

I feel the chaos around me

A thing I don't try to deny

I'd better learn to accept that

There's a part of my life that will go away

I am not myself, 

Something has gotten a hold of me.

There are things you cannot control.

Kaos is everywhere, and there is no hiding from it.

Things happen, thats a part of life.

I will continue to change.



Dark is the night, cold is the ground

In the circular solitude of my heart

As one who strives a hill to climb

I am sure I'll come through I don't know how

They say an end can be a start

Feels like I've been buried yet I'm still alive



Alone in my darkest hours,

I will keep my faith and remain true to  myself.

As one who look for the Path there will be hills to climb.

Somehow I know I'll make through, how? I do not know.

With every end, there can a brand new start.

I am back in full circle, in a constant battle with oneself and the world.



If I ever feel better

Remind me to spend some good time with you

You can give me your number

When it's all over I'll let you know

 

If I get out of this one,

Please remind me to spend time with you,

With you I am at peace.

 

 

If only words can do thoughts and emotion justice. I guess it was meant to be that way so only you can feel what you feel.

to be continue....later...