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Here is my poetry in words from thoughts unobstructed, continuous like the circle of life and death, from every tears of sorrow to tomorrows laughter’s that shines like a bright sunny day, from the place you lie to rest your head to the head of your tombstone, where your borrowed vehicle remains of bones laying 6ft under and stone that tell an incomplete story of a soul born from nothing and lives in eternity. Even eternity has an end, just as every law can be bend, the irony of men is never @ and end, and even if god send his only son to sing the sounds of all that is unbound to ground that man walks everyday in and out looking for something that is not often found. Man is forever bound to the ground he walks not because of the earth gravitational force, but by the forces that are unseen. Only the 3rd eye blind can see what is tying down to the world in which he lives, he must then keep that vision in his unconscious mind and his undying heart that is his soul and will his labor to plant a root in the ground of the earth and nurture his tree of knowledge so that one day he may climb the beanstalk to a place outside of space and time. All good things must come to an end, but who knows if the end is something even better than the good thing itself. As I fly high above the ground my mind and thoughts are unbound, a euphoria that is deeply profound, savoring every thoughts holy to self, only to remember that the more I savor and the more I hold on to the holy for the self… the more I comedown closer and closer to the ground. All that that was holy, all in the past, all I have is now, now, now, and now… and the only thing left to do now that I am once again bound to the ground that is life…. walk… day in n out!
All is love and all is there for the takings, So give….
This is who I am,
You are welcome to take, but please do not take anymore than what is needed.
One love
One truth
Many lives….
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So here is the thing…before it is lost…
The reason I am content and happy with my self and who I am is because
of this…..
Most people don’t know who they are… deep down… they not that they
don’t know who they are, but cannot get in touch with the essence of
their nature, soul, or personality. I am happy with myself because I am
honest with myself and further more, I am aware of my true nature. They
say, no I say, you have to get to know your self before you can get to
know anybody else. This is true, because once you are true to yourself,
you see, understand, and feel things In a different light. I can see
people for who they are more clearly because I know who I am, and as
much as I avoid the bad qualities about me, I still recognize those bad
qualities and try to better myself in that category. It is because I am
not occupied with searching and looking for who I am, I can focus more
clearly on others. This is important to me because….honestly… it
gives me peace of mind, a feeling of equality and justice. It is what
makes me happy just as much as money or love or drugs, or children,
whatever it is that one is blessed with. I have a gift so beautiful!
And
this gift was given to me by god. Not the himself, but god that is
ourselves. It was given to me by a collective conscious that is….
first and foremost my family, that eventually bear the fruits that is Me,
as an individual, and then the environment that I was schooled in. It
is
as if the planets were aligned, symbolically showing the that from the
gods view point, all the individual planets that is our souls, when
aligned, it is only 1 planet with a glare or aura surrounding it.
Most
of us only see the whole solar system as a collection of 8, was 9,
planets, but when more than 1 planets are in eclipse, it is the synergy
that is god that resulted from the embracing of individualism but
understanding that you are a part of something greater than yourself
even if it is not you shining, because without the concept of
individuality, you are only one with everyone and everything and that
there is no difference between you and anything thing being, hence,
when
seen in this light, no matter what part of you shine, no matter how
bright you shine, it is you and all that is that is shinning. That is
the beauty of synergy, the product of a collectively group is greater
than the product of all its individual parts combine. That is god! Ain’t
that crazy!
How can you be a collective group so that you can lose your self, but
not 2 be lost, but to be more complete and stronger, if no one wants
to
work together?
Everyone want to be god themselves, only to be out shine by the true
god,
one that include you in his plans and would die for you! While here you
are killing him in disillusion that that might or will prove to others
that you are god!
God does not force his will on anyone physically, god does force his
will on people, but people who are not part of the collect-group, he
force his will on them on the form of freewill, he will give you free
will and yet still Will you into his nature or heaven without the use
of
physical force. For God is is not the end, but the beginning to the end.
But we do not know of the end, and even god can not tell you of the end
for if god is god then he is not the end, the end is the absent of god.
This is because, god is only the collection of souls who are awakened,
or aware or conscious enough to will their actions tho become god
itself. This collection itself is one that is continuously self perpetuated phenomena that, by its very one nature of, it is
constantly growing stronger in “power, faith, ” every-time a soul shed
its
skin that is He himself, his individuality!
The ultimate God, is unknowing by man and unknown by god.
For the ultimate god, is a god with out god.
When all the souls are no longer in the state of individualistic, when
all the souls that is and ever will be can come together for the
betterment of not only his as an individual but also for the collective
group. Only then will God truly and eternally be awakened!
Examples are god like man… who want to help the worlds. Some what to
end suffering of the individual, and other want to come closer to god
by
speeding up the process of disassociating of individual to ultimately
receiving the eternal infinity, the totality that is concept of
synergy!
This is why the concept of belonging to a group is so attractive and
addictive.
You lose yourself in the group you associate to and you take on the
nature of all the qualities and characteristics of all the parts in that
collective group but yet still able to be an individual, one that is a
part of the group.
Groups are the rudimentary path to god, it is the most robust, the
most simple, the most addicting and blinding way to god. This god is
incomplete and is very limited in every sense.
Examples…. gangs, cult, and other less extreme, groups of friend, the
group that is your family. While @ the other end of the spectrum, groups
that are of the masses, such as city, state, country, race, gender, and
ultimately, group of religions!
Do you see the connections of those words that I used?
I wasn’t even aware of the correlations until shortly after I wrote
it.
Race, gender, religion…. these are the concepts that our country was
build on!
By our founding fathers, who were a collective group of people who was
physically forced to believe in and worship an exclusive god.
Our founding fathers were the victims of religious prosecution, so
they
left to explore the a new world, a world where
Son Phan
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When the party is over and all the people have left,
When the night light is turned off,
When you staring @ the vast ocean and listing to its waves of music,
When you are in an airplane looking down at the earth,
When the love of your life walk out of your life,
When you haven’t done all the things people around you want and expect
you to do,
When you want to ……….. but don’t know how.
When your soul speak and no one hears you but when your mouth speak
everyone got an opinion.
when you tell the truth to someone close to your heart and they
disappointingly call you a liar.
When someone tell you, “you shouldn’t be that nice.”
When your love one tells you to spare your love for those who loves
you.
When you know exactly what you want and feel you deserve it only to be
kept waiting in vain.
When you perceive another person not by who they are, but rather who
you
are not.
When love and beauty is overflowing inside you and no one is around for
you to share it.
when you were born into this world.
You were born this way, and will die this way.
Alone, loneliness, alone.
That is why I reach out and touch as many people as I can in anyway
possible.
I am peacefully content when I see random acts of kindness.
The ego has no authority over the heart, the heart has the power to
discharge ones ego @ any given time.
I don’t want to be simply a human.
Where do I belong in this grander scheme of co-consciousness?
the ego is much like a powerful dictator
They both have persuasive qualities
They both want to sty in power at all cause.
They both will lie to you with a straight face.
You are FREE only when they die.
The breavheart of a wise man can check his ego and overthrow a
dictator.
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Its been a while since I felt passionate enough to put down my thoughts. Its crazy how fast my mind can go, how fast our mind can move. I started out with wanting to write about something very particular, something that i was feeling strongly about. But once I turn on the computer, I had lost the passion to express what I felt. However, I still feel like i have somethings to get off my chest, my heart, and my mind.
Firstly, I suppose the reason I am here expressing my feeling is because lately I have been feeling a little bottled up inside. I am always trying to be there for others, to be a good friend, to be a good brother, a good son. I feel like I can sense it when people are bottled up or something is wrong, so i try to make myself available if they needed someone to talk to or someone to listen to. As of late, I feel like I don’t have anyone to talk to, someone to listen to. It is a rather frustrating feeling. You can have many friends, but if you don’t have that connection, that understanding with one another, you cannot be yourself with them. I cannot talk to just anyone because… one, they will not understand where i am coming from, two, they will just suggest how I should feel rather than ask why i feel that way and find out how to get over it. I don’t know, i know it sounds complicated, but it is very simple. So what is it that has been bottled up inside of me as of last? That i am not sure of myself. Work, so unfair, and so disappointed. School, never where were I want to be when I know I can be anywhere, Friends, I don’t feel like some of my friends are being a good friend. Keri, I miss having someone to listen to my thoughts and feelings, someone I can me around. People in general, people are so selfish, they break my spirits. Life, i am scare of it passing me by.
I love to meet someone who will help me grow. Someone who will listen to what i have to say, while mature enough to tell me that i should think differently and show me how. Im not learning much from people interms of being a good person. What i need to learn is how to be active and do things that are important to myself and those that are around me.
Everyday is different and tomorrow will be a brand new day. some-days i feel so peaceful spiritually, and there are days where I feel so alive, living, doing what people do. I can be happy either way, and at the same time be sad and disappointed with myself. it is a constant battle with ourselves, day after day. Today’s victory is not guarantee tomorrow, but at the same time, today’s defeat does not mean all is lost, you are given the chance to fight for it again the next day, start anew.
Political: democrats, republicans, republicrats.
it is hard to understand the American political system. Actually, it is hard to know the truths behind the American Political system. One will understand the American Political System if he only ask enough questions, and look a little bit farther than local news. I will never know the truths that are being debated over, the truths that are being fought over. In the old days of Kings and Queens, the actions of one or two leaders can affect a nation. We are more advanced now, we let the voice of the people, the majority of the people make the decisions that will affect us all as a nation. I do not agree however that that is the case today. Instead of 1 or 2 leaders making a decisions that affect will affect a nation, today, that power are shared among a small group of people. There is no democracy, the voice of the people do not decide the fate of the country. It is the voice of a small group of people that is in charge that is heard. We merely get to vote on who from that group of people, the elite, will make the decisions. and even that, we have not much control over, as demonstrated in the Gore and W.’s presidential election. The majority of the “PEOPLE’s” vote was for Gore and yet W. still became the President. It does not matter who is president. Not in the bigger picture at least. Its just a matter of who are we going to screw, and who are we going to let eat the bread crumbs we leave behind. This Country was build by Wars, and later attained prosperity by Oppression. Nothing has changed today, only its mask changed so to keep up with the times.
I am grateful to be living here in this great country, but I wont forget how this country became great. Further more, as a citizen of this country, I have an obligation to my fellow citizens and the people living in other country of the world to consciously and actively hold those in charge responsible for the decisions they make that will affect Myself and my countrymen and ultimately all the people in the world.
“For evil to triumph, it would have to take Good Men to do Nothing.”
Do you think it is possible for one man to be so powerful that his decision(s)/action(s) can directly affect everyone in the world?
Is it possible? yes!, Has it happened? no!, Good Men stood in his way. Will it ever happen? Maybe, When Good Men Decide to do nothing!
Sometime I wish I was courageous enough to stand up and be one of these Good Men. But then I ask myself, Will you stand up and fight and risk your life and the things you hold dear to defend your belief? I sometime wish the opportunity would only presented itself to me so I can see if I will pass the test! Then again, I may pray that there need not be a time that requires myself or anyone else to put themself in harm’s way in order to defend what is Right and Just.
We are all too human! If we are only human, then we are no better off than animals. We are all too human now a days! We are living our lives like animals, living and funtioning solely on our instincts. But whereas animals only hunt when they are hungry, humans are worse, we eat even when we are not hungry and we hunt not for food, but for pleasure and entertainment. When i use “hunt” i do not mean literally, but more figuratively and metaphorically. We hunt one another, to want to do harm to one of us for the things we don’t need.
We are not only human! we are not limited to only that, we are conscious beings.
“We are not human beings having a spiritual experiences…., we are Spiritual Beings having a Human experience.”
It is hard to be a Spiritual Being in this society @ this time in age, paradoxically, it is just as hard to eat healthy in this fast food society. It is more tempting and more encouraged and more rewarding physically to be simply Human. We have lost our ways, we have been desensitised from our true nature.
All these thoughts of mine are first and foremost expressed in light that I am True and Honest to myself, secondly, they are in the spirits of educational integrity, meaning I do not claim it to be right for everyone and if another person can logically express an opinion or idea that either contradict or refute my thoughts or ideas I would honestly and genuinely accept.
This concept of Integrity is not only important but is required for a productive dialogue between two minds. The concept of Interity is accepted, understood, and is often a given among intilectuals while they are either debating or sharing ideas. This is however, not the case among younger people, or just people in gerneral. A lof of people expresses thoughts and ideas that they hold to be true with absolutely no chances of them being wrong, while at the same time exhibiting a sentiment that they neither want to nor open to different point of views that ultimately forbid the ability to learn.
You would call people who demonstrate these behaviors to as “Closed Minded”, further implying that they are being simply “All Too Human.” Our Brain, our Mind is the single characteristic that define the difference between Human and Animal. After all, it was writing in the beginning. Were we not, were Adam and Eve not Spiritual Beings before they ate the Apple? It was “All Too Human” when the apple was eaten, so sinful is human nature, so tempting and alluring making it so much harder to go back to being Spiritual Beings.
“I think I am, Therefore I am.”
For us to realize our potential, our spiritual self that once was, we have to know it and to believe in it, at all cost. This is Man’s turning point, the point where..
“Man were free of thoughts, to thought we were free.”
This unknown period of time is one of universal change. Man were polarized, Separated and Divided, then they quickly Multiplied, then they Added the willing and Subtracted those that resisted. Historically one can suggest this period of time is the period where the B.C era ended and the A.D. era began.
“History is bias and incomplete, because it is written by the Victor [of War] .”
Prior to the Polarization of Man, When Man were free to think free to from outside forces having only themselves to battle, and if they conquered themselves then they were given the unobstructed view. This is also the time of when Religions were born. A time when anyone who wanted to be more than just Human, anyone who wanted to learn the way back to being Spiritual Being again can simply and freely follow a Teacher. If you followed One that is Holy, one that has truly found the way, You were not only reading historically bibles, or going to church to be preached to by Fathers who are often “All Too Human,” No, during this period of time it was different. If you found the right Teacher, you were in the presence of God himself, Man Actualized! During this period of times, Men such as Jesus, The Buddhas, Muhammad, and many others, were walking the earth.
These Men exhibited a new kind of Power that has never been seen. During this time, Physical Power is one that dominated. The Power to conquer, the Power to destroy, the Power to Kill, The Power to Enslave. The emergence of this new kind of Power, the Power not to Kill but to Love, Not to Destroy but to Build, Not to Dominate but to Share, Not to Enslave but to FREE. TO FREE ONE PHYSICALLY AS WELL AS MENTALLY!!! They Started a REVOLUTION!!! They have challenged the system, those in power. Although they did not directly challenged the system that were created and enforced by those in power, because they did not want power! The had no desire to Rule! The essence of their souls alone challenged those in power, indirectly. These Men who claims to have found the way are exuding powers unheard of and of this world. These Men had a powerful affect on people, people would give their life need only they give a sign. Power to persuave, power to make people believe, power without force! The Power Of God!!!
And why did people follow these Holy Mens? Why did they believe in them? How is it that not onely one or ten or thousands but millions of people would believe in them and follow them to the end?
There is only One Way they can make believers out of People!
“They Practiced What They Preached, They Were the Living Proof!”
Although there is only “ONE WAY” that they can prove that they were HOLY they all expressed and showed it differently.
Jesus, said to love thy enemy. To turn the other Cheek. To Forgive. To Love thy Neighbor as thy self. He also said, We are all Sinners. Repent, and ask for Forgiveness!
Buddhas said, You are Me and I am You, therefore, If you love yourself, you will love me. Do not have Hate, Revenge, or Anger in your heart. To believe in Karma. He also said, This world is full of Sin, Sin is derived from Craving and Wanting, Which then leads to Attachment! Free Of Attachment!
Main Difference:
Jesus: Live Your Life that is in the HERE and NOW Consciously. Repent and Ask for Forgiveness and God will let you in his Kingdom. Hence, Heaven is in the afterlife.
Buddhas: The way to Heaven is Right Now, Right Here! Heaven is Right Here Right NOW!
Who is right and who is wrong?
Who Cares…….
Lets just agree on the fact that they both were Holy!
How they wanted to express and communicated it is solely determined by their Purpose of their message and the audience they felt would listen.
Although they both were Holy Men, they got there in different ways because they are different, and lastly there is still only ONE WAY to get there. The WAY is not determined by its actions or its intentions, The Way is Having the Wisdom (an unobstructed view) to carry out the actions needed to grow, Will Power.
We are now at Duality: Ying and Yang , complimentary and contradiction
REVOLUTION:::
WARS……………After WARS……………
BAD MEN V.S. GOOD MEN
Those In Power V.S. Those who stood for FREEdom
and the winner…………………
Well, they write History!!!!!!
REVOLUTION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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damn, i feel like as if I have been in a car ride for 15 hours straight, but rather than being physically worn out I am Mentaly and Emotionaly worn out. All the dances, from one to another, only to realize that I have already dance that dance before. The problem is,I think, to borrow the analogy of Dr. Richard Alpert’s (aka Ram Dass) Guru, “you can come and visit Christ, but it is better to Be Christ.” This is true for me.
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I am like a moth getting to close to the light, only difference is that I am aware of what the light will do to my physical existent. The more I find myself, the more I lose my reality. Sane enough to know im crazy and crazy enough to know I dont want to be sane. I speak to you as I talk to myself, not in words but in thoughts, in a perfect mirror with no reflection. I have been experiencing something weird, something different, something profound, something crazy, something out of this world, something i can not yet explain, something i try to communicate while at the same time i know it cannot be communicated. My faith is not rooted deep enough to follow the light, the ego is still there holding on to what lives. I feel something inside i have never felt before, something i have been looking for for a long time now. I know i have not found the answer because i am still not clear. Doubt stills lingers in my mind, but at the same time peace and calmness settles in my heart. The closer i get to the answer i have been looking for, the farther i get away from reality.
I have been stuck in a stage/phase for a long time now, and I believe I have found something or something has found me that might help me to grow spiritually. My spirit feels connected deeply with this force but my ego still hold on strong to my reality. I feel a feeling of truth that is undeniable and I want to fall in that ocean that is truth, but i am affraid because i do not know how to swim. So i hold on to the land that i know to be true. i have reached out to a couple of people and so far i have realized that this path is one that i have to walk, alone. …..
lets see how far I can swim…
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I speak to you in the language of love. My message is compassion. My intentions benevolence. You were the first person, to show me that another person can care for as much as himself or herself, out side of my family. You were so caring and selfless with the people you cared about. I admired and fell in love with that part of you. You made me want to become a better person, for myself and for the people that cared about me. You showed me love like no one has ever shown me before, you love me the way I wanted to be loved. I had a connection with you that I have with non other, and no other would understand. As we grew as a people and together as friends, we slowly saw our differences. Differences that eventually ended our crossroad. What separated us was not our differences, but rather our spiritual immaturity. We saw our differences as a road block, and are unable to see beyond. Beyond our differences is our where we both want to be.
Where did you go and why did you leave me behind? you were not just any friend of mine. You were my special one, one that knew me and loved me more than anyone. I gave you the very best of me, just as you gave me your best. I saw your beauty through all the thorns, accepted you for your good and bad…. for you who you are. All you ever saw in me is a talent….. wasted.
You slowly lost your respect for me, and from that, you lost my respect for you as a person. I still loved you, but do not respect your views. If anything, as I lost my respect for you, I love you more. I felt even more compasionate toward your being. I wanted to share with my gift. I wanted to share with you something that you thought I had wasted by not reaching my potential. I failed miserably. We faild miserably. What hurts me more than losing your friendship is to know that you do not see the beauty that is me. Of anyone, I would think you would be the first person to do so. I woundnt be so hurt if it was anybody, but it is you… My Best Friend, one who i care and love so truely and passionately. And to make even worst, you looked down on me for the way that I am. That is the reason I lost respect for you, you are blind and judge. You are chasing after wind, and eventually you will get tire from your search. One day you will come to see me, but by then it will be too late.
I love you so very much, I have given the best of me for free. I’ve tried when most would not. I dont know what else i couldnt have done.
I know I am losing someone and something so beautiful, but I cannot hold on to you because you do not respect and appreciate me.
I know what i am losing, which is why i am so hurt.
But I also know that I am something beautiful myself and is worth appreciating and repecting. You taught me that, you taught me to love myself and to know my self worth.
You are losing someone beautiful….
I will be content that I have tried and given you my best.
I wish you the best in your life…. you will always be in my heart, for it is an imprint that can never be erased.
I love you not with my heart,
But with my soul.
I will never understand why you chose to go away, and leave me behind.
I am a bird with broken wings, a heart with no beat, a vision with no colors, a person without you.
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You are my only friend, You are my best friend. Who knows me better than you, Who is always there when I needed a friend, You. You have always been there, to listen, to console, to give advice, to cheer up, to laugh with, to cry with, and ultimately to just be with. Without you, i have no one, no one to listen, no one to talk to, no one to just be with. You are with me every step of the way, never pushy also insightful. You always guided me with your words, but allowed me to be the driver. I love you most but I also take you the granted the most. In times like these, all i have is you. Only you see me with your heart, only you see me for who i am. Only you can see me, because you are the only person I cannot lie to, I cannot hide from. Moments like these, I am grateful i have you in my in my existence. No matter what I feel, right or wrong, without judgement, you sit right there, right next to me….. just being.
You tell me… that I am like a moth getting closer and closer to the light. It worries me deeply, it scares me intensely, i fear what might happen… But something inside, so beautiful, so powerful, so peaceful, so calm, so loving…. something inside tells me I am ok. And no matter what, as long as I have you… the way that you are… No matter what i do, no matter what i go through… you will be next to me… just being… and something about that makes me feel like I am home.
I trip out because you have been with me all along, every step of the way.
I have looked for someone like you all my life. Finding false hope in others, and eventually to be disappointed. I was never aware of your friendship until I started to write this post. You revealed yourself to me in these words in this post. You are the noe writing the word, my only friend, and not I. You and I have always been one and the same.
This blog title is borrowed from a friend of mine, the reason I chose “get lost with me” is because I see a pattern in my writings. I can never stay on one subject. I start off with a subject title and weave through what seems to be irrelavent to what the focus was and end with something so far from the where i started. The reason for such kaos is this, My mind is not perfected, my neurons are not completely connected, and my impulses are not fully strengthen, I cannot see the essene in everything… and further more I cannot see the connnection between everything. My spiritual eye cannot see 360 degrees, hence my thoughts expressed in my writings is like a rock skipping across a pond. From one place to another, one subject to the next. Its appears to be different subject but its essense is all the same. It is like if i am lost, but i am not really lost. That is why I like, “get lost with me.” So do get lost with me… lets see where the rabbit hole goes.
The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings
but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We
spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have
bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less
time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less
judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less
wellness. We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too
tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We
have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too
much, love too seldom, and hate too often.
We’ve learned how to make a living, but not a life. We’ve added
years to life not life to years. We’ve been all the way to the moon
and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new
neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We’ve done
larger things, but not better things.
We’ve cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We’ve conquered the
atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan
more, but accomplish less. We’ve learned to rush, but not to wait.
We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more
copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.
These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and
small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are
the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken
homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway
morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do
everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is
much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time
when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you
can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete.
Remember, spend some time with your loved ones, because they
are not going to be around forever.
Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in
awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your
side. Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you,
because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it
doesn’t cost a cent.* Remember, to say, “I love you” to your spouse
and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.
* Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday
that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to
speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths
we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.
>George Carlin<
I had to start out my First Blog with a Bang, and there is not better man to Blow it up than George Carlin. GC’s observation of our society and the way we interact with one another is the essence of my writings. So many starting points that I do not know where to begin. Then again, if i believe that the beginning and end are one in the same then it does not matter where i start.
Talking2Mirrors is the tittle of my blog because I intend to write as if I am talking to myself. Through Self-reflection, self-honesty, self-less and self-integrity I hope to begin my Self-Therapy. I was told by a good friend to write and expressed my thoughts because I have a lot to say. I do have a lot to say, but to most, it says nothing. Further more, even if it is said, will anyone listen. It is thoughts like these that deter me from putting thoughts to paper. That is why i intend to write for me and only me, and because i see some good things might come out of this as a by product. Its hard for me to write because I only enjoy writing when i am inspired! It is funny because i can be inspired by anything at any given moment. But now is not one of them. So I will take a break and free my thoughts:… a few hours later…. after looking at others peoples blog, I realized that it does’tn matter what I write about as long as I write something. I just hate writing with no passion. So lets see if I can inspire myself.
The Lonely Path. Yes indeed, I believe that this is the path that we are have to travel. I feel that Life is a journey to find oneself through people, things, and experiences. This could easily be misunderstood as a negative point of view. I however do not see it that way. The Lonely Path we walk is inevitable just as our death. No matter what or how we decide to entertain ourselves, the void that is in us is ever presence.
Its really hard to talk to mirrors. Its hard to talk to your soul. Its hard writing this blog, its hard to be honest with yourself. “We lie best when we lie to ourselves.” Most of us, have a problem dealing with our inner-selves. Some do not know how to deal with it at all, so we find ways to submerge it in our poison of choice. The writing above by George Carlin shed lights onto the kind of people we are becoming. Behind all the luxuries, prosperity, technical advances, and conveniences, there still is this emptiness. I believe this is the metaphoric line that divides the West and the East. Individualism and Collectivism, Private Space and Public Space, Me and We, Want and Need . The Western world have been enjoying great prosperity, luxury, and conveniences. While most of the East have been struggling to adapt new way of life in order to keep up with the rest of the world. While the West enjoys its luxuries and its high quality of life, most of the East is struggling to attain and sustain the necessity to live. However, the picture i have painted of the two worlds is not complete. As George Carlin pointed out, despite all of our advances, we are not improving our Quality of Life. It is almost like we work so much harder for things we do not need, and in the process of working hard it has become our escape. We try to escape from our inner-self. Let me make this more clearer. The void is always there, entertainments is a form of distraction, so we try to find new and better forms of entertainments to escape being with SELF. It seems like as we move forward materialistically, we are moving backward Spiritually. One would have to wonder how long can this last? Much of the East is going through the same thing as the West is now experiencing. However, most of the East is in its early stage also known as Developing Countries. I am not sure how the people of the East are handling the transition from Needs to Wants.
Like everything else in this world, nothing is without its opposite. The thing that made this country great will also be the same thing that make this country fall, unless we as a collective society through our wisdom and our will power to redirect the future of our country and ultimately the world.
Lack of self, try it once and you’ll never be the same. I have lost my sense of self, although not completely. But if i was to lost my sense of self completely, I would be considered an insane person. Sane and Insane is a matter of opinion, better yet,it is a matter of a collection of opinion, say…. society. Sane is referring to the practical world, while Insane is anything not practical to survival. This world we have created is one full of paradox’s, oxymoron’s, and hypocrisies. Nothing is ever as it seems, and everything is twisted. With that said, I never forget the beauty of the this world. I come off as a negative person because of my views that I expressed, but that not because I do not see the beauty of things, but rather because I wish to change the ugliness that is infecting us all.
You see, I have a gift. A beautiful gift. A gift that is enjoys great rewards but also endures a lot of pain. I was blessed with a childhood that was carefree, care for free and free to care. I had no major obstacle to hinder my spiritual growth, and no traumatic experiences that might damage my psychological state of mind. I was blessed with love by the people who genuinely cared about me, although not often shown but expressed implicitly. I was given all the time in the world to grow, to grow at my own pace. I grew up in two worlds. The one I call it my homeland, and the one I call it home. My experiences in my homeland instilled traditional and family values in me, while my home educated me on the world and its ways, both seen and unseen. The combination of the two has made me very empathetic of people. All throughout my childhood up and up to now, I see no reason to have hate in your heart. Sure I get mad, and I lose my cool, but i never let hate reside in my heart. I love people, because I see myself in everyone and I see part of everyone in me. Its a foolish way to think living in this society, it has brought me many troubles and confusions. It has also set me back in ways no one would ever understand. It has also cost me love, friendships, and more importantly respect from the people I respect and love. I try to cope with what is lost with the awareness of what is gained. I try to be a true to myself as well as a good person to others everyday in every action. My greatest downfall is that I don’t care enough about myself. I need to take care of me before I can take care of anyone else. If i want to help people, then I must first help myself, or else I am no use to anyone. This is my greatest obstacle in life so far. It is something I spend a lot of time contemplating about, what is the reason behind me being this way?
There are two types of people in this world. One who walk the path but does not see the destination, and the other is one who see destination but cannot walk to the path. I guess there are three types if you include those that neither want to walk the path or see the destination.
I am one who sees the destination but have a hard time walking the path. It just has hit me, this is probably why I have a need for companionship. Someone to walk the with on the path. Interesting…… to be continue…
